I don't feel like writing
I honestly don't feel like writing. But my feelings weren't made to control me, I should be the pilot in my own life.
So here am I, writing out my heart. I don't even have an idea of what to write today.
Perhaps, about my daily experience, as is my custom.
I worked from home today. Interesting, right? Yeah, it is. I always do my best work when the environment is quiet. Does that mean I'm an introvert? Probably, but I also talk a lot. I love to talk, but I also love to retreat after a long talk.
I have always thought I was mid-way between being an introvert or extrovert, but to my amazing surprise, a personality assessment I did a few days ago, confirmed that I'm 71% introverted. I couldn't believe my eyes. Yet in the middle of the surprise came a dawning realisation- I think I do better at letting out my emotions through writing that letting it out through talking.
Lest you start expecting more from me, I'm not there yet. There is that naughty voice, that keeps pulling me back that my writing is not even in any way good enough for public consumption. But I take that feeling of fear and inadequacy and channel it to writing about it. So the mind battle continues.
And with the number of pieces so far in the last 3 months, I think I have proven that I won't give in to fear, but I'd keep trailing the opposite path of fear. Not in any way meeting my goals yet, but also not at all burnt by the coals of unbelief.
So you've seen why I write now- to get the best of me out to world and never yield to fear or unbelief in the process of doing so. Let your fear propel you.
Finally, to quickly clarify me to you, I seem extroverted because I refuse to give excuses for why I don't communicate and relate well with people. Master the required you, be the pilot of your own life.
So here am I, writing out my heart. I don't even have an idea of what to write today.
Perhaps, about my daily experience, as is my custom.
I worked from home today. Interesting, right? Yeah, it is. I always do my best work when the environment is quiet. Does that mean I'm an introvert? Probably, but I also talk a lot. I love to talk, but I also love to retreat after a long talk.
I have always thought I was mid-way between being an introvert or extrovert, but to my amazing surprise, a personality assessment I did a few days ago, confirmed that I'm 71% introverted. I couldn't believe my eyes. Yet in the middle of the surprise came a dawning realisation- I think I do better at letting out my emotions through writing that letting it out through talking.
Lest you start expecting more from me, I'm not there yet. There is that naughty voice, that keeps pulling me back that my writing is not even in any way good enough for public consumption. But I take that feeling of fear and inadequacy and channel it to writing about it. So the mind battle continues.
And with the number of pieces so far in the last 3 months, I think I have proven that I won't give in to fear, but I'd keep trailing the opposite path of fear. Not in any way meeting my goals yet, but also not at all burnt by the coals of unbelief.
So you've seen why I write now- to get the best of me out to world and never yield to fear or unbelief in the process of doing so. Let your fear propel you.
Finally, to quickly clarify me to you, I seem extroverted because I refuse to give excuses for why I don't communicate and relate well with people. Master the required you, be the pilot of your own life.
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